Wednesday, April 18, 2007
31 Weeks!
Tuesday, April 17, 2007
Daddy
Then he proceeded to tell me about this carrier thing that you can put the baby in and carry her around the house with you as you do dishes, laundry, and whatever chores you have to do. He said how the baby likes to be close to you so if you use it they tend to cry less and are happier babies. I said, "you mean a baby sling that I told you about a few days ago when I mentioned I wanted to try one?" He said, "uh, yeah." Guess I know NOT to talk to him while he's watching TV or is on his computer:)
Oh boy...do I have my work cut out for me! Granted, it has been a long time since Brett's kids were babies, and he was younger than I was when he had his kids...but he's going to need some training! As most of you know, I was trained in the art of newborn care when I was only 10 when my niece, Kristen, was born! And ever since then, I had lots and lots and lots of practice with babies and children of all ages. It's like riding a bike, at least for me...and I'm sure hoping some of those things come back to Brett as he becomes a Daddy all over again:)
In his defense, Brett has done his best to take care of me and the kids throughout this pregnancy, and it hasn't been easy! We were still adjusting to married life together with 4 children, when the 5th little one started reeking havoc...and it has been a lot for all of us to deal with. He has had to completely take over the laundry, cooking, dishes, cleaning, shopping, not to mention tending to the kids' needs (and did I mention we have 4 of them!) While he's trying to do all of these things, he's also dealing with a demanding business that is in the process of expanding. He's usually working or we have the kids, which leaves little time for household chores. When I get frustrated that things aren't getting taken care of around here, he plainly admits, "I'm just not as good at this stuff as you are!"
Of course, we have the kids helping out, and I must say that they are becoming very capable little helpers! I can look past the piles of laundry that need to be folded and put away, I can ignore the dirty kitchen floor and even our pig sty of a bathroom (and bedroom), I can stay upstairs so I don't have to even look at the basement, and I can close the door to the baby's room so I don't start painting...but boy, I sure am glad I have my sisters, brothers, parents, and girlfriends, coming over this weekend to help out! It's getting harder and harder to lay here and do nothing when so much needs to be done, so I thank God for all of you and everything you've offered to do! It will definitely help to keep me from breaking all my rules...and remain somewhat sane for just a little longer. And for that Brett thanks you, too!
You know what they say, "When Mama's not happy...nobody's happy!"
Little Josie...we all love you very much, but Daddy will be very relieved when you arrive safely and Mommy can actually get off this couch do something:)
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
Dr. Appointment...Good News!
I also met with the nutritionist. She tweaked a few things with my diet...I was skipping some carbs at supper time to keep my numbers low enough, but she didn't want me doing that. If my glucose goes too high, then I will need to be put on meds to control it, but bottom line is that I have to make sure to eat enough. She said to spread the carbs out more if necessary, but getting them all in is important for my nutrition and the baby's. I can handle being told to eat more! So we'll see how that goes, and check back in in two weeks.
Good appointment...good day:)
Monday, April 9, 2007
A Light at the End of the Tunnel
We had a nice Easter here at home, the boys came home at 2 and Mom and Dad came for a visit, of course, with a few little baby gifts. Dad took the boys to McDonalds to use a gift card they got for Easter, Jordan begged to go. And later Brett and I had KFC...YUM!
I can't wait for the next 11 days to go by! My sisters, my brother and his wife, Brett's dad, and others will be here to work on Josie's room...everything needs to be done yet - EVERYTHING! They are also planning on doing some cleaning and laundry if there is time. They might even get to the garage! What a huge help...and relief!
By then I will be almost 32 weeks...my next big goal! I'm sure I'm going to cry as this all becomes more real. There will actually be a real little baby girl here soon, right here in my arms. I'll admit, it's taken a long time for this to sink in with all of the difficulties I have had...but now, finally, a light at the end of the tunnel!
Wednesday, April 4, 2007
Things I Will Never Take For Granted Again...
walking outside to get the mail
taking my time in the shower
driving anywhere
getting up to hunt for the remote myself
grocery shopping
doing laundry or even cleaning
making dinner for my family
playing a game at the table with the kids
eating as many cheetos as I want
going for a walk in the sunshine
getting up when my son says, "Mom, come look!"
being there for school events
going to the doctor with my boys instead of finding someone to take them
walking to the park with my family
going on vacation
wearing make up
getting a haircut
not getting up in the middle of the night to take medication
going to a movie or out to dinner
standing by the window watching the kids playing outside
dancing
cutting the grass
going to church
chocolate and cake and pie and ice cream
sisters and girlfriends who get it
holding a healthy baby
Tuesday, April 3, 2007
29 Weeks and Still Home!
Later this afternoon I have an appointment with my doctor, so if there are any changes, I'll let you know. But for now, I'm liking this boring routine:)
Broken finger!
Our doc sent him to a specialist to make sure he didn't need surgery or anything else, probably because it was broken for a couple weeks and had started healing the wrong way. The specialist said it would be fine, he just has to wear the splint for 6 weeks. He can even play sports to some degree but does have some limitations.
What did Jordan have to say about all of this?? "Well, at least I made it until I was 11 before breaking any bones!" We all know he did much better than I did, I think I was on my 3rd cast by then:) Not to mention my broken toe...thanks Jerry! HA!
Friday, March 30, 2007
Home...
The boys didn't know I was coming home, so when they got home from school, they were really surprised...I will never forget the look on their faces. I even got a hug from Jordan (who gives them very sparingly at his age!) Kaden snuggled up by me for a long time, and so did Jordan. Jordan got me all caught up on what he's been working on in school, and Kaden and I did his homework together! Even though I'm still stuck on the couch, it's great to be home and back to "normal"...whatever that is:)
Hopefully things will stay settled down for at least a few more weeks, because at this point, Brett would have to drag me back to the hospital!
Thanks to everyone who visited me in the hospital, you really helped out more than you even know to make my stay a little bit easier. And thank you also for all of your prayers! We have made it through the most critical part of this pregnancy, and I know we didn't do it alone!
Wednesday, March 28, 2007
A Chance to go Home??!!
I have started getting use to the gestational diabetes and all things that go along with it. I had great blood glucose levels after my meals all day, so I think I have a good start on the whole thing!
Home sounds so good right now! Even though I would still be on bedrest, I can't wait to be there to see the boys like I use to! They are doing well, but only seeing them for a few hours a week sucks...that is the worst part of all of this. I just want to be their mom again.
Tuesday, March 27, 2007
Magnesium Decrease and Test Results...
Today I failed my 3 hour glucose test, which means I have gestational diabetes. I met with the nutritionist and will have to check my blood 4 times a day to keep it under control. They are very strict with gestational diabetes because of the effects too much sugar can have. There can be respiratory issues at birth, a higher chance of obesity in adolescence, jaundice, low blood sugar at birth, a large baby...and so on. Enough to give me lots of incentives to follow my diet, which will hopefully be enough to keep things under control. If not, meds will be prescribed. The good news is, gestational diabetes usually goes away as soon as you deliver.
I also got results back from my urine culture and I have a bladder infection...I had already started meds for that when the screen came back positive 2 nights ago.
Along with the bad results today, we did have some great news. We had an ultrasound, and my cervix is still the same! YEAH! Also, the baby is looking great and weighs approximately 2 lbs. 9 oz...so right where she should be! She had been head down for the last 3 weeks, but today she was breech. Later, when finding her heartbeat on the monitor, we found it way down low again indicating that she was head down again. Apparently she isn't ready to settle in yet:)
I think that's it for now, but please pray with us that tonight will be a quiet night and tomorrow we will be able to try things without the magnesium.
28 Week Milestone and NICU Tour
Last night we had our tour of the NICU, and it sure has changed since Kaden spent his 2 nights in there almost 7 years ago! They have 4 big rooms that fit 6 babies each. They are very quiet and dimly lit so the babies can sleep soundly, that's when they grow the best. They also have very beautiful artwork in all of the rooms each based on a different theme. A mom who had a baby in there painted everything free hand and she is obviously very talented!
The nurse was holding and feeding a little 4 pound boy that was doing really well, and it was strange how big he looked to me, especially in comparison to another little girl in there. They have a baby born 4 days ago at 26 weeks who weighs 1 pound 4 ounces. She was, of course, on a ventilator and all hooked up to her IVs and monitors, but she was doing really well. It was just amazing to see how small she was, her legs were literally as big around as my thumb! And she was moving all around in her isolet, wiggling her little hands up by her face and squirming from side to side just like any baby would. She just looked too tiny to be able to do any of that...very surreal. It sure made me greatful that our baby is already twice that size or so!
As much as I don't want our baby to spend any time in the NICU, I'm sure it will be a little less scary now that I know a little bit more about what to expect if that is the case.
Monday, March 26, 2007
Monday morning update...
My doc also ordered an ultrasound for tomorrow to check on the growth of the baby, and I'll also have my 3 hour glucose test in the morning. I was borderline on the 1 hour so we have to make sure I don't have gestational diabetes. I suspect it will come back fine since it is very common to fail the first test and pass the second with flying colors.
I also got my progesterone shot today...you know that one that is suppose to prevent preterm labor?? Guess they figure we'll take all the help we can get:)
At one point over the weekend, the baby wasn't wiggly at all for about a 12 hour period. They put the monitor on early after I expressed my concern. She was doing fine, and moving quite a bit actually...but with the placenta being in the front of my uterus, it's hard to feel all of her movements. The meds do make her a little sleepy also, but this morning she is hopping all over the place...YEAH!
What are my goals for the day?
- to balance our checkbook and make sure our bills are paid
- possibly start crocheting a blanket for my baby
- to shave my legs...no matter what it takes!
Saturday, March 24, 2007
Same old same old...
The other day, when I explained to Jordan that it may be a while before I can go home, he said, "that really sucks, Mom. Why can't we bring all of this stuff home with you, the bed, the IV, the monitors..." I said that would be great but we would have to bring a nurse, too. He said, "that's ok, she can be our butler!"
Also, I had explained to Kaden that if I need anything at all, a popsicle, some juice, or whatever, all I have to do is push my red nurse button. He thought that was pretty cool...and after cuddling up by me on my bed for a while he looked at me and asked, "Mom, do you need anything? Because I can push the button for you."
I miss the boys very much but am greatful for the several visits I have with them each week. And they understand that their little sister just needs to stay where she is for a little bit and that this won't last forever. It will all be so worth it.
Wednesday, March 21, 2007
Life at the Hospital...
Magnesium sulfate is an IV medication that effects the central nervous system and can be used to stop contractions. It weakens your muscles and makes it hard to get up all the time to use the bathroom, so I had to have a catheter put in. It also has other side effects for the mother so they have to keep an eye on me, but so far so good.
It worked and the contractions got under control, they did have to go up to 3 grams at one point as I was contracting right through 2, and at that dose I felt like I was going to melt into the bed. Thankfully, we've been holding steady at 2 now. I am able to handle these side effects much better...I'm sleepy, my eyes burn, I'm flushed and hot and have a general feeling of being out of it, but I can see straight as opposed to at the higher dose. It's hard to concentrate on things. It has weakened my muscles, but I have proven that I can get up to use the bathroom and take a 3 minute shower in a chair, so he let me get the catheter out yesterday! Yeah, that was driving me nuts.
Most importantly of all, the baby is doing well and I'm still pregnant! After consulting with my high risk OB, they have decided that the plan is to leave the meds right where they are for at least a few days, and then try to wean me off (which so far hadn't been successful). If I can't get off of it, I might be stuck here until 34 weeks. But whatever it takes.
The hardest part is I miss my boys. We have decided that they will just stay with their dad, who has been pretty accommodating through all of this...he even brings them up to visit me. That makes things a lot easier on Brett, who cannot possibly do it all right now...life goes on and he still has to work as well. This way the boys' life will be a little more structured without as much running around...and I will still get to see them several times a week.
This is not easy, but it sure beats the alternative. At 26 weeks, we were given a survival rate of 60-70% by one of the NICU doctors up here. Of those that survive, 60-70% will not have any long term complications. Now that we are past 27 weeks, we are at the 80% mark! We have several things in our favor as well...I got the steroid shots to mature the lungs, girls do better than boys when born early, and we are already in a hospital!
That about sums it up for now...keep checking back for updates. And thank you to everyone who has been praying for us. We strongly believe in the power of prayer and each and every one you send up there is much appreciated!
Sunday, March 11, 2007
Sisters...
she grew up with you...she shares more of your memories than anyone else in the world
she just "gets" you, and she knows what that means
she's someone who hugs your children...and they feel familiar
she has unspoken permission to boss your husband around...not to mention your kids
she knows her way around your kitchen, and when she can't find something, she isn't afraid to dig for it
she cleans just like you do, without any silly questions like "where's your mop?" or "what else needs to be done?"
she folds laundry just like you do
she knows when something's wrong by the way you answer the phone
she's always on your side
she's makes you feel better just by being there
And I'm lucky enough to have two of them!
My sister, Sonia, just left our house this morning:( She was here since Thursday at noon, so we got to have a nice long visit! She did so many things for us around here that it is unbelievable! Laundry, cooking, shopping, dishes, cleaning, and I could go on...all while looking after her two little ones. She even made us rice krispie treats and packed my "just in case" hospital bag. Of course, we got in a game of Scrabble while munching on our favorite snack, Cheetos. (She beat me.)
Charlotte joined in Mason's fascination with our pet gerbils and they snuck downstairs with Uncle Brett every chance they got to play with them. I got lots of hugs and kisses from the kids and I can't believe how much they've grown since the last time I saw them:) It was a great weekend and I can't wait to see them again!
Thanks so much, Sonia...you don't even realize how nice it was for me to have you here!
Friday, March 9, 2007
Trip to Labor and Delivery
So we headed in at 9pm without even waiting for the doctor to call back. When I got there the contractions were about 4 minutes apart and my heart was racing from all the meds I had to take. They called the doctor on call and he said that if I didn't have any contractions that showed up on the monitor after an hour to send me home. I was not comfortable with that AT ALL! It was difficult for the nurse to find my contractions since I'm so early, and the button she gave me to mark when I was having a contraction wasn't working. Just because they didn't show up didn't mean I wasn't having them! And the nurse could feel my tummy tightening up with them. Obviously, these contractions had been enough to shorten and dilate my cervix over the previous 2 days...so I wasn't leaving until they stopped and we knew I wasn't progressing more. The doctor on call then told my nurse to call my doc at home and wake him up. WHEW! He adjusted my meds and said to try to sleep and he would be in in the morning to check me out. He said that sometimes sleep can be very helpful in calming contractions even when medication can't. He also ordered the steroid shot to help mature the baby's lungs mature just in case, but I said I didn't want it until I talked to him personally about it.
He was right. By morning, they had slowed to 2 an hour, and my cervix was still the same as it had been the day before...1 cm dilated. He consulted with my high risk ob before letting me go home and they decided that I should remain on the higher dose of my meds until I go in again on Monday at least. They also agreed to wait on the steroid shots for now. They are most effective if given as close to birth as possible, so apparently they are confident that we have some time. I was released at about noon.
I hadn't had a trip to labor and delivery for over 3 weeks before this one. If I get 3 more weeks before the next one, I'll be very greatful!
Wednesday, March 7, 2007
Changes...
On the positive side, our little girl looks perfect, just kicking away in there without a care in the world:) And at this point, each day in the womb increases chances of survival by 2 to 3 percent. Stay in there, sweetie!
Tuesday, March 6, 2007
25 Weeks and Going Strong!
Tomorrow is my appointment with my high risk ob who will do an ultrasound to check cervical length and of course take a peak at the baby. I'll let you know how it goes.
This weekend, Sonia (one of my sisters) is coming for a visit with her two kids! I can't believe I haven't seen any of them since my wedding way back in September. I can't wait!
Sunday, March 4, 2007
ER Trip!
So, needless to say, the Magnetix went on the very very top shelf that none of the kids can reach, and we had a very long talk about what NOT to put in your mouth. All these years of telling the Kaden "get that out of your mouth" and now he finally gets it...he won't be doing that again anytime soon. Just when you think you don't have to worry about choking anymore...think again. With kids, you NEVER know what you are gonna get.
Friday, March 2, 2007
24 Weeks!
This week has gone by much faster than last week, so that's good. I think I'm settling into my routine with the bed rest and am accepting the fact that my days consist of watching TV, reading, playing on the internet, talking on the phone, and if I'm lucky getting a shower and putting on clean clothes. Oh yeah, I've also done a little baby shopping online:) The boys are getting use to the routine, too. Kaden crawls right up by me on the couch for snuggles before bed, and Jordan sits in bed by me and lets me borrow his gameboy...isn't that sweet!
Jordan felt the baby move for the first time the other night. He has been a little leary of touching my tummy (it is very weird afterall), but this time I just said "give me your hand" and put it where she was moving, and he felt a kick right away. His face lit up and a surprised "HA" came out of his mouth. As much as he has been trying to keep his excitement a secret, he couldn't contain it at that moment. I asked, "do you want to feel it again?" He replied with a simple, "no". I guess that was enough excitement for him for one day.
